The Devil Will Find Work For Idle Hands To Do

There's so many things I want to do, but I'm afraid I'll never do them. It's funny because I came here to complain about not having learned to make electronic beats already. My excuse has always been finances--I don't have the money to buy software, and it really is a legitimate excuse. I came here to complain about the fact that I'm sitting here watching Food Network and surfing the internet when I could be doing something worthwhile, but when I started to write I realized how idiotic I am about to sound. I woke up this morning and went to the Davis Farmers Market, came home and made a delicious veggie sandwiches with my sister, cleaned my refrigerator, went swimming with Jamie, wrote a short paper for my writing class, and then finally put up some magazine clippings I wanted to hang in my room. I did A LOT today, so how could I seriously complain about having idle hands? I have all these dreams of things I want to do, and I guess when I have nothing to do--like right now--I start to freak out because I haven't accomplished my dreams and I'm afraid I never will. There's only so much time, only so many days in my life to do what I want, and sometimes I feel like I'm wasting time. But I always need to remind myself that I AM accomplishing my dreams. A year from now I'll have graduated from a prestigious university making me the FIRST person on my Dad's side of the family to have graduated college...and I believe the second on my mother's side of the family. I'm planning on going to Ireland next summer. I'll go to grad school after that. I really am doing things in my life that I've always dreamed about. There really are no idle hands here, but ah..there is so much I want to do! I wish I had more time and energy to do it.